Sorry I haven't been around for a while...

...but there's really not been too much to say. Things are the same as they've been. Work sucks, my depression still isn't cured or even under control, and the world spins on as usual. Doesn't seem to be much point in writing or even talking to anyone. I've been horrible about that as of late.. totally incommunicado. But I just have nothing to say, I guess.

I'm worried about myself. I have never felt this flat or uninspired in my life. It's not that I'm a screaming mess - hell, I think I'd feel better if I were. This is just... nothing. Blankness. No static on the dial. I got nothing.

The way it's going, I'll probably never write again at this rate.

Uhhh....

....I've seen a lot of stupid infomercials in my time, but this has got to take the cake. What kind of market do these people think this product will attract???

Best line: "It feels great on my abs." It sure sounds like he's saying 'ass', though, doesn't it.

I can just picture myself now in one of those damned things. Labels and urine cups flying everywhere, heh.



I am speechless.

Restlessness seems to be my middle name as of late.

I've been.. okay. Not great by any means, but my life's not falling apart either, just... "okay". I guess that I should be grateful for that, but I can't help but feel that I'm missing something.

Saw "Julie & Julia" last night. It was interesting, though parts of it made me feel like... well, a million people don't read my blog, so therefore it must be a piece of crap, right? :p Then again, I suppose this woman had a purpose and set out to make it happen. I don't really have any goals, either, I guess. Just to get through a day is good enough for me.

I'm disjointed and rambling this morning. Not feeling 'right' for some reason. I think I'm going to pack it in for now, maybe go back to bed. It's a long weekend and Christ knows I need the rest.

Cruise in 5 days. Yay. (said with obvious lack of enthusiasm)

My good mood persists.

Even though it's Sunday and therefore little time until the idiocy begins again, somehow I'm actually not minding as much as I have the last few weeks. Perhaps the Abilify has finally kicked in and is starting to work. Whatever the reason, I'm grateful for the respite.

Not really much to say today - it really is the definition of 'a lazy Sunday' - but maybe that's a good thing in my case, heh.

I've been thinking, but instead of thinking about negativity and how I'd like to slap people stupid... I've been thinking about perhaps making efforts to mend fences with people that I was angry with... and maybe shouldn't have been. It's going to take a lot to overcome my stubborn pride, but with time... perhaps. I need to think about it, as I told someone last night.

I really do feel good. I'm reveling in it - this is so rare for me.

On a side note, my Dell Mini is "still in production", but now the automated line is saying April 13th. I can't wait to get it.

Also, I'm finally getting around to cleaning up, fixing, and posting my pictures from Sydney. I know, I know, it took a year. Deal with it. :p More details as they're available.

Until next time, cheers.

P.S. Does anyone else find the guy holding the April sign in the human calendar on the sidebar just.... looks creepy as fuck? Maybe it's me...