Ah, the wonder of technology, where I have the ability to bitch about my life, live, as it's happening.
The truth is that there's very little to bitch about at the moment. I'm worried about school and a paper that's due on Sunday, but I'm going to do the best that I can on it and leave it at that - I'm done with stressing about it. Otherwise, everything fine. The Luvox seems to be working very well, but I'm still being cautious - optimistic, but cautious. I don't want to get hopeful, only to be let down once again.
One of the positive things that has happened from the medication is that I have taken the step - a very big step, for me - of apologizing to a few people that I have in the past distanced myself from, for whatever convoluted reasons I dreamed up (and I admit that I probably did it out of illness - you don't reason when you're depressed, because you can't). In any case... a few people have accepted my apology. Some haven't. That's okay - I did the right thing, and if some can't accept it, that's fine. I have finally learned, I think, that I can't control the universe - and that it doesn't revolve around me, though I'd sure like it to. I might have trouble remembering that - but I do know, finally.
With that said, I now introduce you to two new blogs - News of the Highly Bizarre, which is run by my friend Layla - and Inside the Cynic, run by Rob. Enjoy them - they're both witty and intelligent people. Would I hang out with anyone who wasn't? :p
Speaking of blog, I'm again considering a format/design change, but I haven't learned enough CSS or Dreamweaver yet to implement it. Sure, I could rip off another blog design from the free templates that seem to proliferate out there - but I did the one I have now on my own (admittedly with a lot of help offered) and I'd kind of like to keep it that way. There's too much hearts and pink and glittery shit out there for my taste - I'm 37 years old, not 17, I want mine to at least look adult-oriented, if not be it. Sheesh. I think pink is a lovely color - if it's not overdone, which it is about 99.9% of the time.
Not much else to say today, so I'll close out. Hopefully the rest of the week will go as smoothly as it can.
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07 October 2009
16 February 2009
Welcome to the new....mordacious.org.
I hope everyone likes the new look. I know I do - it's much improved, sort of 'polished', sleeker if you will. There are a few things that are still missing, such as links to frequently-read sites, my friends' blogs, etc., so while it looks a bit sparse for now, they will be returning shortly.
Since this has really become my 'platform' of sorts... a way to express myself, I guess you could say... I suspect that I'll be a lot more vocal about the things that I care about and believe in, as well. Some of you might be scratching your head in confusion now, I'm sure. "Isn't that what a blog is for? What was your blog before if it wasn't that?" And truthfully, that's a hard thing to answer. When I first began using this blog back in early 2008 (even before the 'meltdown' that caused me to delete the first few posts), it wasn't read by anyone but me, and in truth I began utilizing it solely to complain about my problems and my depression symptoms when no one would listen (or when I felt that no one was listening!). Over time, though.. it became my way to express myself, whether the feelings were good or bad. And as I've fought my way toward mental health, somehow it's turned into what it is today. What it is to you, the loyal reader, only you can say. It's still the same for me as it ever was. Perhaps this is just a sign that I'm finally beginning to recover from the utter hell that is depression.
Perhaps I never felt that anyone really wanted to know, or cared about, what I had to say. I'm starting to find that this isn't necessarily so. That's definitely a sign of improved mental health.
This blog might not be the most entertaining you've ever read... or the 'coolest' out there, or the most intelligent you'll ever run across. But you know, that's all right, because none of those things are what I'm trying to be. As one of my coworkers often says, "It is what it is." Seems to be the catchphrase of the year, heh, but in this case, it's nothing but truth.
In any case... welcome to the 'new' mordacious.org. Your approval would be nice... but in the end, it's not needed. :D
P.S. Most of the graphics that are here are totally original, but for the skyline of Baltimore, and I'd give credit if I knew where the hell I got it from.. but honestly, I don't remember. If it's yours, tell me, I'll credit you. But the rest is original. I did search high and low for good backgrounds before I went ahead and made my own. And I'll tell you what... if you're ever looking for any kind of graphics to use on a website, avoid ANYTHING that says "myspace" in the search result. You'll get nothing but glittering crap, pink hearts and doves and shit, and constant misspellings of words that even a 3 year old should know (i.e., "U R MY BFF 4EVR!!!!"). Retch. Take my word for it on this.
Since this has really become my 'platform' of sorts... a way to express myself, I guess you could say... I suspect that I'll be a lot more vocal about the things that I care about and believe in, as well. Some of you might be scratching your head in confusion now, I'm sure. "Isn't that what a blog is for? What was your blog before if it wasn't that?" And truthfully, that's a hard thing to answer. When I first began using this blog back in early 2008 (even before the 'meltdown' that caused me to delete the first few posts), it wasn't read by anyone but me, and in truth I began utilizing it solely to complain about my problems and my depression symptoms when no one would listen (or when I felt that no one was listening!). Over time, though.. it became my way to express myself, whether the feelings were good or bad. And as I've fought my way toward mental health, somehow it's turned into what it is today. What it is to you, the loyal reader, only you can say. It's still the same for me as it ever was. Perhaps this is just a sign that I'm finally beginning to recover from the utter hell that is depression.
Perhaps I never felt that anyone really wanted to know, or cared about, what I had to say. I'm starting to find that this isn't necessarily so. That's definitely a sign of improved mental health.
This blog might not be the most entertaining you've ever read... or the 'coolest' out there, or the most intelligent you'll ever run across. But you know, that's all right, because none of those things are what I'm trying to be. As one of my coworkers often says, "It is what it is." Seems to be the catchphrase of the year, heh, but in this case, it's nothing but truth.
In any case... welcome to the 'new' mordacious.org. Your approval would be nice... but in the end, it's not needed. :D
P.S. Most of the graphics that are here are totally original, but for the skyline of Baltimore, and I'd give credit if I knew where the hell I got it from.. but honestly, I don't remember. If it's yours, tell me, I'll credit you. But the rest is original. I did search high and low for good backgrounds before I went ahead and made my own. And I'll tell you what... if you're ever looking for any kind of graphics to use on a website, avoid ANYTHING that says "myspace" in the search result. You'll get nothing but glittering crap, pink hearts and doves and shit, and constant misspellings of words that even a 3 year old should know (i.e., "U R MY BFF 4EVR!!!!"). Retch. Take my word for it on this.
14 December 2008
Ack, it looks so WEIRD on the desktop again, lol.
It's fixed! I have my music back! :D A big thanks to one of the best tech geniuses that I know for being so patient with the memory upgrade portion of it. (Well, that, and for keeping me from having to do it myself, lol. I'm so lazy.) The blog looks strange on the 'big screen', but as I'm moving it soon, it won't matter.
Oh, yes, there are a few new links in the "I read this" section - You Suck At Craig's List (which is self-explanatory, really)... Unfortunate Names, a blog dedicated to those products and things that maybe shouldn't have been named by morons, heh... and Creepy Vanity License Plates, yet again self-explanatory. But all are at least slightly amusing. Link them. Now.
Not too much else to talk about today, as it's a lazy Sunday and I'm going to spend it either fixing the blog or obtaining my music or both, heh. I did want to mention that I just found out that one of my best friends from high school, Michelle Brady, died the day after Thanksgiving (November 28th) - apparently she'd been in the hospital for a long time with an undisclosed illness. She was one of the few people that I hung out with on a regular basis and I'll miss her. I'm only sorry that I wasn't able to get in touch with her before she died.
Though I'm only 36 years old, it makes me conscious of my own mortality.
Peace.
Oh, yes, there are a few new links in the "I read this" section - You Suck At Craig's List (which is self-explanatory, really)... Unfortunate Names, a blog dedicated to those products and things that maybe shouldn't have been named by morons, heh... and Creepy Vanity License Plates, yet again self-explanatory. But all are at least slightly amusing. Link them. Now.
Not too much else to talk about today, as it's a lazy Sunday and I'm going to spend it either fixing the blog or obtaining my music or both, heh. I did want to mention that I just found out that one of my best friends from high school, Michelle Brady, died the day after Thanksgiving (November 28th) - apparently she'd been in the hospital for a long time with an undisclosed illness. She was one of the few people that I hung out with on a regular basis and I'll miss her. I'm only sorry that I wasn't able to get in touch with her before she died.
Though I'm only 36 years old, it makes me conscious of my own mortality.
Peace.
01 July 2008
The month of July has finally arrived!
Not even 19 days left before I head on out of here! Whoa! :o
I think I've finally figured out what I'm going to do as far as my blog's concerned. I'm going to go ahead and keep writing from the road, when I can, but I'm going to direct everyone to have a look at my photographs elsewhere - at least I hope I'll be able to do this. I'm known for not really paying much attention to taking pictures while I'm on holiday, but this time I'm going to, simply for the fact that I'm going to a place that I'll probably never get to see again in my lifetime.
It's hard for me to describe how I'm feeling at the moment, because it changes from day to day. One minute I'm overexcited about going - after all, a trip to Australia is a lot of peoples' dream trip, at least in the U.S. it is. And let's face it, in this hard-assed economy right now, it's a miracle that I'm going at all. I thank Christ every single day here recently that I prepaid most of my trip - the plane fare, the accomodations, all of that - with gas prices the way they are now, there's no way in fucking hell I could have managed this if I hadn't. That's what all of the people who laughed at me for making plans early get - I was right and you were wrong. Hahaha. :p Anyway, the next minute I'm seriously thinking this was a huge mistake, for many reasons (one of them being financial, heh - I am no position to be spending a shitload of money over there like I was going to). But... well, I'm not hard to please, really. I'm not a partier, I'm not going to be going out every night, and the things I want to see either cost very little/are free, or they're worth every penny of its exorbitant price, heh. We shall see what happens.
Otherwise I'm trying to take it as easy as I can today. I have yet more cleaning to do, but I'll get round to it this week. The doctor's appointment is the day after tomorrow. It figures that now I feel fine, meh. Ah, well. Nothing's stopping me.
I've added a new friend to my last.fm, engelmeine. She also posts on the Music Memoirs memes, as "she-schenker" - her blog is nicely designed and very well done. See it here. I bow to her superior HTML skills. (Actually, I do pretty well myself, but I need to actually get up off of my duff and do it, lol.)
Off for now, cheers.
I think I've finally figured out what I'm going to do as far as my blog's concerned. I'm going to go ahead and keep writing from the road, when I can, but I'm going to direct everyone to have a look at my photographs elsewhere - at least I hope I'll be able to do this. I'm known for not really paying much attention to taking pictures while I'm on holiday, but this time I'm going to, simply for the fact that I'm going to a place that I'll probably never get to see again in my lifetime.
It's hard for me to describe how I'm feeling at the moment, because it changes from day to day. One minute I'm overexcited about going - after all, a trip to Australia is a lot of peoples' dream trip, at least in the U.S. it is. And let's face it, in this hard-assed economy right now, it's a miracle that I'm going at all. I thank Christ every single day here recently that I prepaid most of my trip - the plane fare, the accomodations, all of that - with gas prices the way they are now, there's no way in fucking hell I could have managed this if I hadn't. That's what all of the people who laughed at me for making plans early get - I was right and you were wrong. Hahaha. :p Anyway, the next minute I'm seriously thinking this was a huge mistake, for many reasons (one of them being financial, heh - I am no position to be spending a shitload of money over there like I was going to). But... well, I'm not hard to please, really. I'm not a partier, I'm not going to be going out every night, and the things I want to see either cost very little/are free, or they're worth every penny of its exorbitant price, heh. We shall see what happens.
Otherwise I'm trying to take it as easy as I can today. I have yet more cleaning to do, but I'll get round to it this week. The doctor's appointment is the day after tomorrow. It figures that now I feel fine, meh. Ah, well. Nothing's stopping me.
I've added a new friend to my last.fm, engelmeine. She also posts on the Music Memoirs memes, as "she-schenker" - her blog is nicely designed and very well done. See it here. I bow to her superior HTML skills. (Actually, I do pretty well myself, but I need to actually get up off of my duff and do it, lol.)
Off for now, cheers.
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