Routine can be so refreshing. (Edited - see below.)

So it's Christmas Day, and I've been really just kicking back, relaxing, and believe it or not - doing laundry. I got a chance to really attack the huge pile of clothes laying on my floor in the bedroom (okay, so I'm a secret slob, what can I say), even doing what I call my "crusty coat", heh. It's not that bad that it can stand up by itself or anything like that - I'm not THAT much of a slob - but it's not been washed for a while and it's something that I've been wanting to do for quite some time, but somehow just "never got the chance". I find that this has been a day for catching up on things that I've been wanting to do.

Now, this might sound horrifically boring if not downright sad to most of you, spending Christmas by myself and doing chores. But I find these things oddly comforting, because it's a signal to me that all is right in my world, if you follow what I'm saying. I can look at my bedroom and say, "Well, by Christ, my clothes are clean, I don't have to worry about THAT anymore! Look at this, that's finished, I don't have to do this anymore for a while", etc. For me, that's a good thing, and it gives me peace. Isn't that what Christmas is supposed to be about, peace? I've had so little of it, and even if it means that I achieve it by doing laundry and coloring my hair (another thing I'm planning on doing tonight - I'm too young to have this much silver in my head), so be it - that's how it is.

One of the things that I find I need to start (or rather, stop!) doing is comparing myself ceaselessly to other people. I was thinking again about how much my blog "sucks" - about how I don't talk about important or worldly things, or sound educated and lofty, blah blah ad nauseum. And then it occurred to me - who's making that judgment but me? No one that I know, certainly, unless they're saying it behind my back which in that case I'll most likely find out anyhow, that's how it seems to work where I'm concerned. Why do I always tear myself down? So it sounds like I'm fresh out of high school - so the fuck what? At least I'm young in spirit, if not chronologically.

Maybe that should be a resolution for 2009, only I don't do resolutions, heh. If I'm going to change my outlook, I'm of the opinion that you don't need to wait until a certain time frame - just... well, do it, you know what I mean?

For tonight, however, I'm at peace, and that's all I could really ask for as a Christmas gift. In that, I've received what I really wanted this year.

Thanks, Santa. :D

EDITED TO ADD HERE:

Late-breaking news - Eartha Kitt, who played Catwoman in the '66 "Batman" series with Adam West, apparently died today of colon cancer at 81. Eartha Kitt was a fabulous singer, one of those people that did "smoky nightclub" and late-night music so well. See the clip below for a sample. Sad day for the world of music and television, indeed.



R.I.P. Eartha Kitt 1927-2008