As it stands now, I feel a lot better - though some symptoms persist, such as the dizziness/feeling light-headed and some really bad mood swings. Hell, I was sitting on the light rail train coming home and looking in the window and suddenly I could feel myself getting ready to cry. (Maybe I actually did cry - if you call one tear trickling down a cheek 'crying'.) As usual, that's a product of, what else, overthinking.
I had a lot of things on my mind tonight... but in truth it's all mixed up and I'm not in the best shape emotionally to deal with it all or talk about it - for now. There's nothing really wrong, so don't you all get to worrying, heh. It's just... well, you know how sometimes you have too much spinning around in your head and you can't seem to process it all enough to put it into words? That's what's going on here. I'm perfectly fine - a little run-down physically but that's normal toward the end of the week... mentally, a little worse off but I think it's just the last of the Paxil trying to come out. I'm not in the depths of despair like I was, not even close.
Once I have a chance to settle down a bit, I'll probably talk up a storm. Weekends are so much better for me to do that, anyway.
I do know one thing - life is very confusing right now. That's for sure.
More tomorrow, probably, but I'll leave you with this much - I was hearing this song in my head while coming home on the train. I love it a lot, but at the same time it's sad in some ways. Probably that's what got me to crying, heh, who knows.
Love, peace and chicken grease.
1 comment:
as time passes, i'm sure it will get better with getting all of it out of your system. i definitely know what it feels like when you have so many things in your head, and it's so hard to put it in words. i usually just have a hard cry when no one's around and it makes me feel a bit better. usually the frustration of it all does that. just get overloaded and tears seem to release the tension.
have a great weekend chica!!
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