It's 10pm on Sunday night, and I can already feel little knots of tension building up in my neck and my back. Working the Saturday shift wasn't so bad - for once I actually got to deal with people that have a little bit of brains and common sense, a miracle in this world. If I could, I'd work every Saturday. The only downside would be that my weekends would be split up permanently, and it's rare enough that I get any time to myself anymore - if my weekends were split I think I'd die.
I'm going to just try to take it as easy as possible this upcoming week. I'm already feeling stress, 12 hours before my damned shift begins. Not good. Not good at all.
I desperately need to talk to my therapist. I haven't seen her in over a month now, thanks to work screwing me out of my day off that I needed. And they're trying to screw me over again, claiming that I have a "mandatory" training class on the day of the appointment(s). Uh, no. I'm going even if I have to take an unapproved day off - this is my goddamned mental health on the line and it's already fragile enough. I can't afford to miss any more appointments. And I won't.
The dizziness is starting to go away, which is good. It's the major reason I felt like shit last week, so hopefully it won't come back.
I'll probably be buying my new Dell Mini this week, though I'm hard pressed to spend any money right now, sigh. But I need it in order to do my classwork on the train, that's the only way I'm going to be able to do the college courses. I hope that the mobile broadband isn't going to cost an arm and a leg, though it probably will. :(
Other than the obvious, there's not much going on. I'm tired, of course, and dreading work tomorrow... but that's par for the course, I suppose.
Off to bed now, see if I can't get a jump on the week by getting enough sleep.
1 comment:
i'm glad the dizziness has subsided for now. i'm thrilled that you will be starting courses again. you might want to do a search online, or find out about financial help with the dell. there are some programs out there that even give laptops to returning adult students.
anywho, i hope it will help and not add to the stress, and as far as your mental health, which would the company rather have? an employee who takes off a day she's due, or have to quit due to attacks?
i hope you continue to get better and the symptoms suppress. love ya!
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