In through the out door.

I have received my confirmation - yes, that's right, confirmation - letter from Washington D.C. - I landed the federal job, it's definite, I have an address and all. I start next Monday, the 18th, at 9:00am. And while I'm nervous, I know that this is the right thing to do. It's a step toward independence, toward security, that I've claimed I always wanted. We'll see how things go now.

I'm slated to move (at least the big stuff, anyway) on Saturday. I hope that I can manage to get everything (or mostly everything) packed and out of here by then. This apartment feels so bare and ... desolate without my pictures, my things scattered about. But it's time to move on from here, as well.

The doors of the past 2 years are closing fast on me - pain, isolation, loneliness, despair, suicide. I have reasons to live now. And a lot of them came from unexpected places and unexpected sources. I'm learning humility... and gratitude... and maybe even a little patience... and trust. Definitely trust. I'm not out of the woods yet, as they say... but I'm learning, in the best way that I know how.

I'm ready to find out what this world has for me.