After a day of what was easily the worst attack to hit me yet since the post-Wellbutrin/Abilify/Buspirone cocktail was prescribed... I'm feeling much more like "myself" today, whatever consists of my self, anyway. I felt better enough to get out of this house and get groceries, which for me is a major coup since I hate shopping of any kind (yes, even groceries. I'm just not a shopping chick).
I'm recommitted to following my medication schedule. Have to be, because I seriously think that's what the problem was.
I was going to go down to Merritt Athletic today and ask about a subscription, but... not enough time today and I want to be able to pay my other bills. Just because I got a raise doesn't mean that I'm all of a sudden Miss Moneybags. Still, I need to work out a lot more, so... maybe the added expense will be worth it.
18 days until I go on this cruise. I'm not sure of why I'm not more excited about it. Possibly because it's a vacation with my mother, which for normal people would be a good thing, but for me... it's a virtual minefield. I don't know what she'll say or do on this cruise to embarrass or humiliate me, so I'm naturally wary. I need the time off from work desperately, though, so I'm hoping all will go well. Pictures to follow, of course, but ship-to-shore Internet access is horrific in price, so I don't anticipate that people will see a lot of me during those 9 days. I'm sure you all will miss me, though, right?
Enjoying a milk chocolate Lindt truffle. I know, I absolutely should not have these, they're fattening and I go through them like water, but they're so good. At ten dollars a pound, though, I assure you that I don't get them very often... my tastes are apparently becoming expensive.
Anyway. I feel a lot better today, which I'm grateful for. Here's hoping the week will run just as smoothly.
2 comments:
Without question, the last few days were due to sporadic meds. You know it, and I'm super proud of you for deciding to be compliant again. That is one of the most insidious things about psychiatric meds (like Effexor that I was on) b/c you feel so much better and then you miss a dose and are still okay and so you think maybe you don't need it, or maybe skipping isn't that big a deal and then all hell breaks loose. You need to take them, just like vitamins, b/c they help fill in the gaps where you are low on certain chemicals. Just like I have to take hormones now that I'm uterusless. *giggle* Uterusless sounds silly. :) We just need to take our version of vitamins so we balance out. Plain and simple. :) I'm jealous about the cruise!
glad to see your mood improve from the previous post. i do hope this cruise will help you relax, find some peace.
i'm so uneducated when it comes to medications, and i freely admit it. i just hope the cocktail will help you out. it's hard to pop pills. hell i hate taking my insulin!!!
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