I woke up extremely early this morning, refreshed for a change, so I figured that I'd get up and post a little bit of what's on my mind today - and as usual, it churns with useless bits of information.
It seems that quite a few people were a bit upset about my Mother's Day rant post yesterday, which came as no surprise. What did surprise me, however, was the broad-brush general assumption that I don't love or honor my own mother. Uh... that's a rather bold statement (not to mention wrong) to be making, don't you think?
Let me say now that I'm in therapy for my issues with my family - which is where I belong at present. Because of my condition, I have a lot of problems in dealing with the dynamics - some of which involved a lot of neglect, both emotional and physical, and ignorance of some physical abuse that was going on. I hold a lot of anger toward my entire family - mother, brother, father - and I'm in the place that I need to be to work it out. Being angry with my mother doesn't mean that I don't love her - I do - but there's that old saying that you don't have to like a person to love them. And let's be blunt - I don't like my mother, or my brother, or really my entire family. If they weren't related to me, I wouldn't piss on them if they were on fire - and that's the truth.
With that said, I did have a nice Mother's Day lunch with her yesterday, so it all worked out for the best.
There's more going on, but I'm not real comfortable discussing it at this point. I'll get around to it when I can.
If my post bothered you, I'm genuinely sorry, but... I'm not taking back any of what I said in it. It's how I feel, and I'm not going to apologize for my opinions, or the right to express them. I spent too many years burying how I feel under a blanket of so-called societal approval - no more.
I think I'll actually be happy to start the week for a rare change... go figure.
1 comment:
nor should you ever feel you can't express yourself. there's the flipside of that post a friend of mine had on myspace where a female friend of his called him selfish and self-absorbed because he chooses not to have kids. hello?!? since when is having kids some sort of social obligation and not a choice? i told him i think him having 3 cars and motorcycle and his own house had more to do with not having a woman to squander and whine about what she didn't have materialistically had more to do with his personal growth than not having children, LOL.
either way, it's the broad assumptions ppl make that get me. so if yesterday's post irritated some, then they obviously have their own thoughts and opinions, just like you have YOURS!! *shocking conclusion*
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