I love hot showers. Especially when I have to get up on a Monday morning and face the bleak reality of going back to work with idiots, heh. Here lately, though, it's been a time of not only cleansing my body, but apparently my mind as well, since I seem to have all kinds of crazy thoughts running through my brain.
Here's just a small sample of what went through my head this morning while getting clean:
- Wondering if I'm the only person in the world that uses soap down to the absolute nub. The slivers get used, even if I have to put them in an old pair of pantyhose to keep them together. (Hey, I'm frugal, what can I say.)
- Thinking about my doctor's gentle suggestion (more like order, heh) to start eating breakfast in the morning because it'll help with my depression. Normally I can't eat in the morning, but here recently I've forced myself to. I think it is helping, for what it's worth.
- Wondering if there are people who mirror your personalities almost exactly. I've actually run across two people like that in my life - one in 1995 and another in 2006, both male. The earlier person I absolutely loathed, the latter was just the opposite. Go figure.
- On a similar note, wondering if I disliked said person that I met in '95 because he mirrored the bad things about myself that I don't want to admit to.
- On another similar note, thinking about the person I met in '06 and his tastes in friends, which is nothing short of atrocious, especially when it comes to the female gender. I've discussed it with him before, he knows how I feel about it, but we're at a stalemate on that issue, and knowing how heated we both get when we argue, it's probably best to leave it there, heh.
- Thinking to myself that I've indeed lost weight yet again, and that while I have a long way to go, I'll be a shadow of myself if this keeps up. I think the Wellbutrin's seriously helping with that. I'm wearing a scrub top this morning that I never really felt 'comfortable' in. I still don't, but I suspect that's body anxiety. We'll see.
Meh. It occurs to me that I don't think one thing about world issues, lol. It's probably because I know I can't control what happens, so why worry about it.
Maybe I need to start taking baths in the morning....
2 comments:
i know it's sounds cliche, but it's true about breakfast being the most important meal of the day. it's hard to feel wake and the need to "go on" when your body has slept for how long, and then trying to function up til lunchtime without any "fuel". i had to do that to myself too, as i was never a breakfast person myself, but i've noticed in the past few years the difference it made in my day, as well as in my diet.
can't answer the soap question, cuz i only use body washes.. lol. as far as the friend thing goes.. i can TOTALLY relate!!! it's hard to look in the mirror sometimes and admit to what we truly see.
anywho.. have a great week!!
...please where can I buy a unicorn?
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