Trying something new with the phone.

The new iPhone that I got 2 weeks ago seems to literally do everything. I was shocked to discover that it can function as an Amazon Kindle (and, I might add, quite pleased to boot). So I figured that if this phone can do such amazing things, I should be able to blog from it, too.

And so I can, and am. I'm beyond pleased now because once again I have a way, albeit a slow one, to do this while I have downtime at work like I do now. They said not to use their computers...but they didn't say one word about my phone....

Warning: this portion of my post might be "tee-em-eye". Feel free to skip it if you so wish.

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently about portions of my past. Currently I am having, uh, issues with things having to do with sexual matters. The meds have killed off a lot of my drive - for a while I thought that the Wellbutrin returned that to me, but the Abilify has just murdered it once again. That is a lot of the reason I want to quit the Abilify, along with the cost of it - 55 dollars a month for ONE medication! For what? Sure it helps my manic tendencies, but my Jesus, the cost. I'm not too sure it's worth it. It's something I need to speak with the doctor about, I think, and I will do so after the cruise.

I've been going over my past relationships as well, something I do my best to avoid. I'm searching for reasons as to why I am what I am now. Maybe they hold the key to my healing. One of the most damaged portions of my life deals with my family, which I knew....but I need to investigate WHY....only then will I be able to take steps toward fixing it. This is partially the reason for the cruise...so that I can finally be at peace with myself.

Heh, I'm waxing thoughtful today, but this is important. I need to be as healthy as I can be. Maybe then I can start living again instead of existing.

Fuck depression, man. I won't quit fighting for my life back. Those who took it from me will NOT win, and that I can promise you.