Work is pissing me off again, as usual. I failed an assignment in my crim course (after working my heart out on it - I'm so hurt). And never having any time to myself anymore.... it's all building up to a point where I'm ready to blow up. I'm serious. If even one person looks at me wrong, they're going to get hurt.
I'm so scared that I'm going to screw this school shit up. I'm trying but things are so different than what they were 20 years ago. I don't think this instructor understands - but then, since when has anyone ever understood my point of view?
The only good thing that's happened in the last couple of days is that I'm out of debt again, almost. I have two more cards to pay off and I'm through, and one of them will be handled within the month.
Otherwise... life is shit.
I need control to keep myself from crying... I'm at work. Can't afford that. But God it's so fucking hard....
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Call me nosey if you like, but I'd like to read some of your much earlier posts but all I can do is click 'Older posts' at the bottom of the screen and it gives me just a few each time.
If you're in a mind to (ok, possibly not at the moment after reading this post of yours) could you give me a link so I can read back a bit? I'd like to fill in some gaps, if that doesn't sound way too weird.
There's an archive box up at the top of the screen underneath the 'human calendar'. Just click that and it'll take you all the way back to when it started.
I need to figure out a way to actually fix that, but Blogger is so limited in capability, ugh.
I just left you a comment on mine but meant to leave it here.
In summary... thank you :0)
wish i was there to just give ya a big ol hug (and maybe grope ya a bit.. hehe!!) you're stronger than you realize, and you are a thriving intelligent woman Carrie. you'll do just great. don't doubt yourself. love ya!!
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