Wow, I really love the fact that I can post right from my Email. Kudos to whoever thought of this idea - it's so much easier for me and it doesn't alert these complete fucking morons that I work with that I have a blog. And am I happy for that!
Anyhow, I'm feeling a little better today than I had been. I think the stress of having to deal with my mother's grief over the cat dragged my weekend down and my mood right along with it. But I did mean every word of my last post. I notice that it got no comments - really, folks, no one has to be scared of me when I'm like this. It's out of more frustration than anger. It's very rare that I am genuinely angry at someone or even something - those who know me well will tell you that.
Besides... wouldn't you all rather I got it out here instead of in your faces? :p This is therapeutic for me, seriously. I've toyed with the idea of letting my therapist have a look, but I'm not sure that I want to do that just yet. Maybe it'll reveal a little too much of myself... things that I'm not ready to reveal. I don't know. I don't really know what's holding me back, to be honest. Perhaps it's just that, that I've been closed off for so long and now that I face opening up again, it's scaring me. Who knows.
I'm not really in the mood for introspection today.
What I am in the mood for is for this day to be over with. It's been a very light Tuesday here, but I'm posting during my lunch break, and I assure you that in an hour's time we're going to be absolutely slaughtered. I had to get up at 6am for a stupid class (for once it was actually something I could use in the course of my work instead of complete nonsense), and I'm stuck doing the lab runs this month, so I'll be late getting out of here as well. I think the dumb bitch that made the schedule up (and yes, this is the same one that likes to single me out in the meetings) did this shit deliberately, knowing full well that I catch a train out of here and I have to be at the station at a specific time or I run the risk of missing it.
I cannot fucking stand that little bitch. The other one that I don't get along with, we've come to an uneasy truce, but this little whore-in-the-making needs to be knocked off that little pedestal she puts herself on. Seriously.
Anyway, I'm not in the mood to complain, either, heh. :p
Ah, well, let the insanity begin. In any case, I'm feeling better, so hopefully that'll continue.
1 comment:
glad to see you're feeling better today. not sure how i missed that last post, but i DID respond. didn't before, cuz i hadn't read it yet. i should subscribe to your blog, so i get it in my email and not on an blogger update list!! or better yet..go into your blogger settings and under email & mobile and add my email address to the blogsend addresses, that way i'll get them immediately after you post them!! i do that for a friends and family of mine that wants to read it, but aren't too internet savvy, so it just comes to their emails.
i definitely think it's great you can email your posts now. i think it's a great tool to get out your feelings when YOU want to, not when you're just at home ON the website. you get to get them out AS they occur and i think that's a positive thing. *hugs* love ya bitch!
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