I'm not having a good start to the weekend. First, the girl at work who won't leave me alone, we finally got into it and I TOLD her to leave me alone... then a fight with someone close to me, now my mother's giving me shit to pile on top of it. When it rains, it pours.
You know...I swore to myself that I wasn't going to take any more crap from anyone. Maybe this is a sign. I've been feeling a little stronger in that regard, but.. it still upsets me and it still hurts. I'm just really tired of .. well, a lot of things. I'm not angry or upset anymore, not so much as just.. tired of everything.
What do you do when you have a lot of anger toward people and you don't feel safe in getting it out or expressing it? I mean... what can you do other than swallow it? But then it all comes back up like so much vomit, you know?
Meh, I don't know. It's just not been a good couple of days here. I'm thinking that if I crawl back into bed and sleep for a while, maybe I can turn back time to.. say... 1975, I don't know, heh.
Just tired of this, of everything. I'm about ready to just wash my hands of it all.
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There is another option but it is really tough to implement - you let it go. I have things I could be really mad about with my ex-husband, my mom, my step-father, previous employers, but it isn't worth my time to let it upset me. The only people who should be able to hurt you are the ones you give permission to do so, right? I'll never not be upset if Rob fusses at me, b/c he matters and his opinion matters, but if someone else fusses at me, I don't let it get to me b/c it really doesn't matter in the long run.
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