On the mend.

I haven't been around as much as I would have liked for the past few days, and that's because... for some reason I've had a sort of physical (and mental, too, if I want to be honest with myself) "mini-breakdown". I took what they call "a mental health day" off of work today because I was in so much pain when I woke up this morning - head pounding, body aching all over, just exhausted. And I ended up sleeping nearly all day today. I've missed my medication a few times this week - I know, bad Carrie, I've been yelled at for it already - so if that's happening, I know it's bad. Add in the unbelievably hot weather here as of late - 75 degrees in November? Fuck that - meh. You get the idea.

I want to go home. I'm done with this cat-sitting crap, and I intend on telling my mother that when she gets home. If my brother wants to see her, he can come up here. I'm tired of adjusting my schedule and trying to be "the perfect daughter", blah blah. Especially when it's always revolved around making my brother happy, anyway. It's not that I don't love the cat - I do. She's probably the only thing that's made this whole week and half worthwhile so far. But I miss my apartment, my schedule, the comfortable routine that I had going, etc. Anyone who knows me knows that routine is what I need to make my life at least somewhat stable - God knows I haven't had any kind of stability in my life.

Quick news flash - Obama won. As if you didn't know by now, heh. :p I had a whole blog post prewritten about that and I was going to post it, but... it's sort of controversial and I've thought better of it now. Though I still might, I don't know, it depends.

Mainly what I'm feeling like right now is crap, or "shite" as my overseas friends like to put it. I hope that this doesn't last, because it'll be the second weekend in a row that I've felt ill. :(

Sigh.