Warning - big fucking rant coming your way. Run now if you can't handle it.

It was a very, very rough day at work yesterday, and even now, a day later, I’m still not in a good mood. I’m really tired of being taken advantage of, in all respects. I work my ass off, I do everything that I’m supposed to do, and I get treated like shit – it never fails and it never ends.

No, it’s not so bad that I can’t deal with it, at least right now. But it makes me question myself – whether I’ve “grown” at all in the last year, or if I’m still stuck in psychological limbo where I still feel as if I’m worthless and need to be used as a punching bag. I’m trying so hard to work on myself and to treat myself better – but somehow I come up short still in that department.

I know what it is, you know – I just can’t “sit and do nothing” at work. I can’t do what these people do, sit there and watch movies and gossip while I’ve got a line going out the door. I just cannot do that. I work with the public – my first “allegiance”, if you will, is to them. I don’t care what Britney Spears is doing with her life – that’s her life, not mine. I don’t give a shit what Ciara’s wearing today, I don’t give a fuck if Lindsey’s gay, I don’t care if R. Kelly’s not guilty, I DON’T GIVE A FLYING FUCK. The only people that I care about is me and mine, and if that’s selfish, then I’m the most selfish person alive. What do celebrities have to do with me? Uh, nothing?

And they shouldn’t be important to the people I work with, either, but that’s apparently their main focus.

The little time that I DO get to be on the ‘net – ONLY when things are slow – I read the news. That’s right, quelle horreur, I actually have some interest as to what’s going on in the world! I’m more interested in whether I’m going to lose my fucking money because of the goddamned banks’ idiocy than what Paris Hilton’s latest beef is. Hey, guess what – Paris Hilton’s going to eat no matter who she’s fighting with. There’s no guarantee that I will!

I guess that this is more of a rant about peoples’ priorities than whether or not I’m getting taken advantage of – although it’s directly related. It’s just that every time I believe that people can’t get more stupid and moronic, I’m proven wrong – every… fucking… time. I’ve been told to “look at the positive, I can’t think of everyone that way”. Well, I’ve got news for you – I don’t think of everyone that way. There are some people that can be excused for doing stupid things, because it isn’t a normal way of life for them! Those are the people that I can relate to, hang out with, like and love.

But when stupid is a normal way of life for someone… I’m sorry, but them? I can’t and WON’T excuse it. They don’t deserve excuses, what they need is a lobotomy.