The final link has been broken.

What does that mean, you might ask?  Well.... I noticed that my friend count had dropped on Eff-Bee, which doesn't really bother me too much as people add and drop all of the time.  I went ahead and looked... and yes, it was who I had thought.  It was the person that I had literally been obsessing over for years of my life... the same person who turned me inside out and upside down and fucked me over for the last six years.

So how did I feel?  You honestly want to know?

I don't actually feel anything.  I looked at his profile, saw where it said "Add Friend", shrugged my shoulders, and went about my business.  That's what happened.

It's taken a long time to get to indifference.  And I'm happy that I'm here.  It's a comforting, easy place where I don't drive myself crazy over a person that cares nothing about me but when his next cybersex session is.

I only mention it because I marvel at how little I do feel about it.  Six years ago this would have been an epic meltdown of monumental proportions.  I would have considered suicide.  I'm serious.  That's how sick and depressed I was.  That's how sick and depressed he made me, because believe me when I tell you that emotions transfer.  He was a joyless person and in hanging around him, he stole MY joy.  I'm firmly convinced of that, the further out I get from this illness.

It's finally over, all of it.  I am free.  I am blissfully, happily free.  :D

In continuing the happy news, I celebrated 9 months with Greg on Saturday, and it's just as good as it ever has been.  I truly think that I've found my life partner.  I know, I know.... optimistic, aren't we, but you know... that's another thing that's returned to me is my optimism.  I have hope, I have dreams!

At the same time, though, I feel life smacking me in the forehead a lot recently because... well, I'm almost 40, heh.  Little things are starting to remind me that the best of my life has passed.... well, the young part of it anyway.  I think that I'm IN the best of my life now!  :D

The more I think about D'bag defriending me.... the better I feel... the lighter-hearted I feel.... the knowledge that I have returned, that my self is back and all mine again, that my soul is healed.....

I can't get better than that.  :D