Okay, so. Finally a chance to catch up.

My situation has begun to settle down, though not without some rather nasty potholes in the road on the way there.  Still, after the initial excitement, I believe that I'll indeed be able to make a go of this.  I have hope, anyway, which is a far cry from how things used to be with me.  Of course, there are still moments of (rather bad) anxiety - but that's par for the course, really, and I'm surprised that they're not much worse than they are after everything that's happened to me.  I guess that I now have to watch out for complacency - just assuming that everything is fine, everything is fine.  I have a bad habit of relaxing when I shouldn't and that's when things go by the wayside.

 

I had meant to write more.  I had every intention of writing a huge update about what's been going on in my life recently - and there's been a lot, believe me.  But... suddenly I'm exhausted, drained, completely unenergetic.  Life has been a crazy, mostly positive, somewhat frightening whirl in the last two months... and perhaps I'm just now reacting to all of it by mentally shutting down, who knows.  Some habits die hard, I'm afraid.

 

I think I'm ill once again, thanks to these idiots down at the lab.  My semi-annual cold/illness/virus, etc.  It's about time for it, I guess, I seem to get this every six months.  But I'll suffer through it - I have way too much to do to be in bed sick.  Schoolwork, places to go, all of that. 

 

As a side note, I've lost (as of this writing) 22 pounds since the start of the year.  I'm slowly beginning to see the difference, both in my mental and physical health.  I unfortunately have a smallish frame, so any loss of poundage, no matter how small, is going to make a huge difference in the way I look and feel.  But, sheesh... 22 pounds?  I feel better than ever.  May THAT continue, heh.

 

Perhaps a good, loving relationship was the piece I needed to kickstart my life into high gear.  I just hope that it lasts... and that it's not all a sad illusion or a dream in my head.

 

More later.