My mood is as black as this background.

I don't know why I feel bad today. I was supposed to go out to Sandy Point today, but... I woke up feeling depressed and out-of-sorts, so I didn't bother. That's really my entire outlook right now.. why bother. I don't know what's going on with me, but I just feel so down. Like life has no meaning and nothing I do will make a difference...

Instead of going out today, I've spent most of the day crying in my room. I thought I was over this bullshit.. no doubt my lack of staying on my medications has finally hit me square in the face.

I don't care about anything today. If I were to get word that I failed my crim course (which I most likely did anyway), I'd be like... so what. I lived, ate and breathed this class for weeks, and now... who gives a rat's ass what happens. It's all futile.

I feel as low as you can go right now. Are the suicidal thoughts back? Honestly... they are. Oh, I won't do it.. but right now it sure seems like a good option to end this constant fucking pain I'm in.

I don't even feel comfortable bitching here anymore. Too many people read this thing now. Instead of having a safe place to get it out... now I feel like a stupid, whiny emo. I really do.

God, somebody help me. Please... :'(