I'm not well tonight. It was a difficult day at work (Thursdays always are), and I've been oversensitive to almost everything tonight.
It's days like this where I question everyone's motives, every act of what appears to be kindness, a day where I sense the old paranoia trying to come back to haunt me. It's a day where I can trust nothing and no one. Right now, at this minute, I'm scared, and upset, and I've been close to tears all night.
Does anyone really care what happens to me? Or is it all surface? I don't know anymore. I'm drowning in a sea of blackness, at least I feel like I am. This is my life. This is what mental illness is. This is what depression does to me. I'm so scared and I feel so fucking alone.
God help me. :'(
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